Thursday, April 4, 2013

It's My Party, And I'll Cry If I Want To


I had all kinds of good intentions about what to write here tonight.  Life, sometimes, has other ideas.  Tomorrow will mark the one year anniversary of the death of our dear Office Testosterone.  Truth be told, it's all I can think about today.  It seems like just yesterday he was with us, buoying our spirits with his magic hugs and his positive attitude.  On the other hand, it feels like forever since we saw him, spoke to him, texted with him or Facebook chatted.  Those of us who loved him are having a difficult time this week, as our memories of him collide with the feelings of sadness and dread we felt a year ago this week, and a loss that is so raw that the thought of him makes our eyes well up with tears and our voices catch.  Our Office T was a special friend who touched all of our lives so deeply.  His loss is still overwhelming.  I find myself stalking his Facebook page and re-reading all the private chats between us, just to retain that connection.
As I think of Office T, I'm reminded of what he would want us all to do.  Office T was all about relationships.  To him, they were more important than anything else in the world.  He nurtured his relationships and encouraged his friends.  Even when he was dying, he was more concerned about how his friends were handling his death than about himself.  He consoled and comforted everyone, and encouraged them all to gather with him and his family to give the latter support and so that his last memories of us and us of him were of laughter, good friends and love.  The greatest thing we can all do to honor his memory is to show those near to us how much they mean.   People always love to know they're appreciated, and they in turn, pass it along.  Help us honor our dear Curtis by being kind to those near and dear to you.  Thank you from here in the Trenches.

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